Don't tell me how to feel
Or say that you're for real
My minds made up I'm cool without ya
You got no more appeal
Now this girl don't need no man
Say what you can do what she can't
Now I live for me
Boy does that make you weak
| jus tot i can update dis thing b4 i slp.
hehex. since i long tym no update le. 2dae. waitting 4 sum1 de whole dae. he no turn up. i was lyk? is she all dat matters? oki- fine. i saw him i saw him i saw him i saw him i saw him i saw him 2dae. teachers dae celebration. * b o r i n g* de performances r oki lar. de dances. at least dey are not acting like retardds. oki- dey noe wad dey're doin. hahaz. singings r oki 2. though some 'zhao sia.' den after we went pri skool. c 6ki pupils~! oki. dey changed of cos. bud dey r still.... fighting. - b l a. miss thoes times~! 6kindness jus totally rawkx. * went 2 eat pri skool food. *yumie* after dat. we waited 4 mr chin to finish wad he has 2 do in de DM room wid jwong. den we went bugis 2 eat swensons. mi n na shared banana split. den after we went 2 orchard. wanted 2 bowl at cathay. -under renovation- den we went to marina bay. only got 2 strikes. *lann den after dat plae arcade. i win de wei dono wad at daytona!~. bcos john helpp miee. hahaz. (= after dat went tm 2 eat dinner. k f c. afterr dat i saw him. at interchange. of all pple. him. i should hab sit mrt wid john. hes de last person i want to c. totally freak out on de spot. s t u n n e d. walk anuth route. tears wanted to roll down. controlling demm.. nobody hurt mi lyk u did. |
| sch was nuth.
borrinngg. jus borinng. wad was i doing. nuthh. jus nuthh. bud i lyk de way it is. *\\peacefull im in my own world. dat is- my own world. de dark room//- so glad. mi n reuben tokin on fone again* hahaz. it had been so long since we toked on fone le!~ my dear gor//- reuben* after skool. same boring. jus boring, did nuthh. im a burden. im jus a burden. im hated//* im terrible. not terrible- sick bud de other way. i got terrible looks. i got terrible attitudes. wadeva in me is jus plain terrible. im de xtra 1. im not loved. is jus hatreds. wait? is dere love in dis world? icantfeelathing. im jus dis thing stuck in de middle. wad did i jus did? omg. wad i did? was i outta my mind? sure im in need of love? but?... hes perfect. infact. too perfect for mie. and too old. rmb. im jus a 14kid here. he called at de wrong tym. when im in this state of depression. n i don even feel lyk tokin. wei.g called mie jus now. he sound so.... angry. n harsh. so i decided to meet him 2mrl. don wan disappoint him. did i mention im goin out 2mrl. wid karen\\*? noe wad? w a d e v e r - - i feel pathetic 4 myself. cryin lyk anything inside. i dono wad im doin. wads good 4 mie. n wads not? pple acting lyk everythings okae. evrythings fine. bud look. nuth - nuth is alright in my life maybe u should leave mi alone. i crie my heart out. bud - lyk u care? wei.g - i m s o r i+ donbsoharsh2mie. imnotusetoit. |
| waa. hab to rerite. fine~!
chinese- no speellinng! so shiok. i intended to copy. bud hey. ive avoided sinning~!. hahaz. music. tryin 2 figure how tatayoung- crush on u sound lyk. art~! mr chow sae my drawin nice~! 1st tym man? can u blive it? lolx.. home econs practical! don wanna tok bout. totally sark! omgg. can u blve de spag actually drop in dere? darrnnnnn* - b l a english. do de mock test. i told mrchin i dono hw to do. n his reply was lyk 'how can it b? i went dru it with the whole class? oh i forgot! u weren't paying attention!' oman..hw sacarstic can he go?? d u h h h went to sg poly. i was huggin de converse bball all de wae. de 1 dat we gt 4 his bdae 2dae (= it cost oki?lolx. yarr... den in de bus i sit on de floor instead of de seats.. lolx.. den @ de tutorial?...... john was bside mi snoring so loud. lolx... bud he aint slpin larr. *m a l u* yarr. den after dat gt sum treasure hunt? i dono wad it is bout. bud anywae ASHRAFF GT 1ST~ waaa.. * lolx... we beat de other skkoolls neix. lolz. lame. anyway. mi zhen shermain n jogn alvin went to find bball 2 plae bball. lolx. den de yuhua guy so KUTE! he jus 1 word *KUTE* kute kute kute. bud nbr ask 4 his num* hahaz. hes good at bball too! yarr.. i nbr look at jogn n alvin bud.. i guess they are good (= of cos dey r horrrrr? after dat went bugis to celebrate john's bdae! mi reena* yuanying* karen* john* n alvin* suppose to b mos burgur- bud change to food court o.O dere goes my mos milk shake! anyway. i only ate 1 sushi. hahaz. den was playin wid alvin's fone. i jus gt tutorial on hw 2 use his fone 2dae in klaz horx ?*winkk* lolz. yarr. after dat went to tik neoprint! so farni. yarr. dat foto is precious (= v precios yea? umm. yarr. after cum home liaoz. seven - eight plus (= |
| ireallywasntfaking.
ireallytotallwasover. ireallytotwecouldbeback likewhatwewere. imsorry.imsorry. assuminglykevrythingisright. whennothingis. ustillhateme. dontyou. ifufinditdatpointlesstogoback. dontactlikeevrythingisalrightcan. cosi....totevrythingwasright. iguess. ismoretowadisee. iguess. thisthing. omg.i dono. *crrrriiieeee* |
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| i was not acting.
n i tot it was over. i did nt kol u any names 2dae. i nbr even hated u 2dae. i reallie tot all was oki 2dae. i promise. n i tot we can tok lyk evrything's history. i didnt noe dats more in ur mind den wad i saw in u. if u think it is dat pointless to turn back nw. den fine. don turn bck if u don wan. u c. i aint forcing u. we will jus carry on wad we were. de cold shoulders. n i tot u was happi wid wad we were 2day. it was fake ar. evrything i assume bout u is wrong. im a failure. arnt i. so todays jus a lie again yea. i wasnt actin lyk some normal friens. if dats wad u think* i wasnt. i swear i wasnt. i jus tot. things would b orite after we calm down. i didnt expected things to turn out this wae. i didnt expected this is ur way of thinking. cos. i jus tot. we would b back 2 wad we were last tym. as close as over. bud i guess. i shouldnt anymore. i guess u wont want it anyway. imreallie sick of dis. can we just sort things out? do u even wanna b frienz? stress out**** doulovemielykiloveyou. went to but john badae 2dae. bought stuff frm marknspencer. to makan. de toffee so funy. wadeva. evrythingisoutofspaceagain. wei.g- i miss u. |
| yepp de end of anuth sad dae.
gb was great. wid tessa n enna yea? dey sure did a fab job 2dae. *clap clap* yarr. tessa did a great job at teachin drill too.* n enna sure was enthu. by tokin nonstop. hahaz. yea. den after gb went 2 makan wid karen n emi. it had been a long tym since i hang arnd wid emi. n found out we gt so much 2 catch up! i sure miss de tyms wid her. she sure understan mi hor? cos shes lyk mie. hahaz. yarr. she defnitely a great frien 2 hab arnd. i sure miss ya. my dad bought groove coverage cd. hahaz. de 1st dad dat loves techno. hes full of surprises man. he defnitely a kute man 2 hab s a dad. hes a blessin! yeayea. when sum1 brings u down, dere will b more dat brings u up. -vic- emi -kar- yYy - n wei.g* --big thkx 4 being dere las nite!] iguessissooverbtwus. canuimagineifwegetbacktogether? wewillgobacktobeasclosede. nidonowadwouldhappen. gal.is ur attitudeonlyshowntome? amianything2u? cosidonfeellikeiam. ucanstilljokenactcutearound. budhey.imabouttocry. shouldwegoback. shouldwecontinuegivingeachother thecoldshoulder. nwadifevenwegoback? bcosiguessimtooserious. nsumtimes.ireallydonneed datlaughter.datsmile. idonowhoyouare. useemssofaketome. sososofake. canutellmiulovemetoo. deres so mani gossips now around. n all pple now care about is attention. |
| life is nuth.
bud miserables. life mean nuth. except tears, y am i caught in dis pool of depressionn. n i don seem 2 able 2 get out. outta dis dark n solemn place. i dono wad i have to do. wad i gonna do. wad i need 2 do. y am i crying. lyk cryin can solve evrything. y does evrything seems so wrong. so outta place. y r ppls worring for mie. y r ppl lovin mie. when im tryin so hard 2 avoid de love. den y am i feelin so not loved. alone.`more den lonely] dats gonna b more to dis sadistic thing. after all de consoles. im only lookin for urs. bud. udonevencare. yea. y shud u care. im exactly nuth 2 you. u can jus go offline liadat. of all pple- you` good friens arnt wad im lookin for. true friens are wad im desiring. not friens dat r able to bring mi dru de year. bud friens hu will b able to bring mi dru my life. i think ive gt too much expectation in her. she can nbr b dat frien im lookin 4. ive been blined. giveup.itotallygiveup. plueese.getmiouttahere. lightupmylife. . |
| skool was hell boring 2day.
nuth actaully happened. chinese spellin postponed again. math remidial postponed again. science was drawin on the cups. chapel retarded singing. daydreamin thru out. attitude the whole day. although i tried not 2 show it to her. it revealed abit. den went tm tik de r.o.d fotos. hoping 2 see him. bud. no c him anywhere. darn him lar. den mi n karen went to makan. n we walked the whole of tm in lyk half n hr. tm is de worst place ever 2 kill time man. nbr goin dere again. saw him todae at nite. so in love wid dat smile. so cheekie n blur kinda smile. sheesshh. i lyk his spike hair n his blue bag. he.only cares bout her. everything was bout her. had i eva stan sumwhere in dat hart. dat hart dat i don understand. i don get u. wad exacly r u thinkin. ur all i look forward to. den y am i so cold 2 u? cos im so sick oh hearin her name. her. *her*. dats her` jus [her] n pls. stop actin lyk u care. if u had eva care. did u eva care. i doubt dat. im nuth. nuth 2 u. |
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